Lost (Sort Of ) In Translation !

Buongiorno! Good Morning!! Wow it’s been a minute since I’ve been “here” and it happens to be the day (after) my five year anniversary of arriving in Italy, which was August 28th 2015, once lost (sort of) in translation. It seems like yesterday but not really. If anything,the feelings I had reminiscing about this journey, which started five years ago brought me to the same feelings I’ve experienced during lockdown. Speaking of how are you guys doing? I know worldwide everyone has had a different phase or time zone of lockdown. Here in my region of Italia we went into a complete lockdown on March 11th and it ended May 1st. It was a true lockdown in the “lockdown” sense. We were allowed to get food at a few markets that were open. Our local Bread Shoppe, Fish Mercato, and Pharmacy, those were all open so we weren’t struggling for food. My region wasn’t the most affected so our city was quiet, and very calm. No toliet paper hoarding (REALLY America LOL), no hoarding or doomsday prepping here.I ventured out a few times during that period just really to take a walk and get some fresh air. I enjoyed how quiet and calm our city was honestly. For the most part I enjoyed the time “off”, although I had some work to keep me busy I caught up on some reading, studying, and some classic cinema. My husband and I enjoyed having some calm quiet nights together, on the couch just savoring each others company, it was really nice…

When I first arrived here in Italia I can remember feeling excited,not really nervous. My ex-partner Tony, who we share our daughter Sophia, came with me to get us settled. Even though Tony and I separated two years into our relationship, we have remained very close, good friends. We support each other, and we have managed to raise our daughter together on two continents giving her the best life possible. We have both also remarried and I adore his new partner. She is so lovely and I am grateful our daughter has two sets of loving parents, I mean shit, who even has one set these days right!! I was feature dancing here in Italy so my manager at the time came to pick us up from the airport and drove us to our new apartment. I had to choose an apartment online so I was anxious to see what we were (literally) getting ourselves into! The first thing I notice is how small everything is compared to my spacious home back in LA,BUT I am not here to compare! I am here to start a new journey!!! Sophia and I love our place, and Tony sets out to do some simple home maintenance so we can be extra comfortable.

For the next two weeks while he’s here we do some exploring. It’s the tail end of August so some places in Italy which are usually closed for the entire month are starting to open back up, yay! It’s kind of the best AND worst time to move. Not only IS everything closed but everyone is kinda still on that “coming off my holiday” vibe and doesn’t want to lift a toe to literally do anything. It’s a solid 45 days before I can get wifi (UGHHHHHH) but at least I know where the closest market, bakery, and laundry mat are until I can get the big appliances in! Good thing our apartment for the most part was furnished and had a kitchen already! I was about to learn this brutal lesson with my next house I took three months later. I wanted more space, and a bedroom for Sophia so I wanted a brand new empty place I insisted! It has to be BRAND NEW!! Oh yea the relator says, you got it!! Fuck me in the ass do you know how DIFFICULT it is to put a kitchen in a new place???!! An ENTIRE kitchen! It’s also fucking expensive! Even if you go the “cheap” route and go to that hell of a place IKEA, no no no no…

Back to my original rant about how it’s like hella hard to even find a reliable guy to install your entire f$$$ing kitchen???!!! You need a gas guy AND a plumber because really how often do you ever find a unicorn of a man who can truly do it all!?!? Alright well I did it, but after Tony left I started to have those”feelings” I was talking about. After Sophia would go to sleep I found myself thinking “What in the actual fuck am I doing”, where am I??? Should I have thought this through a bit more? Wait I’m in ITALY!!! I can remember the conversation with my sister Deb, the night before our flight is leaving. I tell her, “maybe this isn’t a good idea? Maybe I’m crazy? Maybe I should stay here I mean I am comfortable???” I have everything I need”?? My sister and I are quite the opposite of each other. While both of us are intelligent, hard working, and level headed (I think?) I have always been the risk taker – spontaneous – nomad – I will figure it out when I get there one. Deb is an excellent listener and she has ALWAYS been my rock. For real though, I can’t think of one moment in my life where she hasn’t been there for me AND as the non judgemental voice of reason. I wasn’t one hundred percent sure I wanted to be so far away from someone I’ve always considered a safety net for me!?? THIS is like, the one reason right? Why people don’t GO! Why they don’t go and see what else is out there, and live their best life? It’s that fear of separating and abandoning their family, friends or any kind of support that they feel can be beneficial for them. Sigh… well it’s not their life you’re, living it’s YOURS and the one and only thing Deb said even IF she wanted me to stay for her own reasons (maybe not I could be projecting LOL) was “oh don’t trip! The only obstacle for you is going to be the language”! You are strong and adaptable you can do anything, you are going to be fine and think of alllll the incredible experiences you are giving Sophia! You are both going to grow so much!!

Absolutely Deb was one hundred percent right. GROWTH. This was the main reason for me leaving my comfy, cozy, shiny life in Los Angeles. I wasn’t growing. I wanted different experiences and just a different quality of life. I have traveled so much and I was sort of feeling like I belonged somewhere else. I also wanted this for Sophia. I wanted her to not grow up in this bubble. I wanted her to speak other languages, to travel to more countries, to experience what life is like on the other side of the world. Traveling has only humbled me and made me MORE aware of how vast and beautiful our planet truly is. It’s easy to give our children material gifts, clothes, toys, electronics, but I wanted to enrich her with knowledge, culture and experiences. I knew that dancing on some weekends would allow me to socialize, perpetuate other revenue streams and keep my adult brand growing but I also wanted to finish school… That’s another post….

Sigh those “feelings” I was having when I first arrived..I said it was similar to the feelings I had when we (Italy) and I guess parts of the world went into Lockdown… Kind of a mix of isolation, uncertainty, excitement, and nostalgia…. all balled up in one. What is going on right now in the world? What about the future? Webcamming is what got me through both of these periods if you can believe it!?? Yes it was going online and connecting in a roundabout way with fans and friends that would bring me some happiness, comfort and obviously compensation. I thought that I would just casually pick up Italian in my day to day life (HA)!! Well it depends on how you would learn a language but I found this in the beginning to obviously not be the case. It seems SO SIMPLE right? Like you’re just magically going “pick up” the language and start speaking and communicating with everyone. That just isn’t the case right off the bat. Of course I knew many basic phrases. I knew how to say hello, goodbye, Pay me now please (quite useful) but grammar kinda comes in handy, and while learning words is very easy it’s when you have to make complete sentences that starts to trip you up.That’s when it clicks and you go ohhhhhhhhh ok time to stop asking my three year old to translate for me and I just have to learn this for myself!! I swear to GOD people would literally talk to Sophia and at age three – four she understood and spoke enough to gently tell me “mom no, that’s not how you say it”…. I only wanted to speak English (how ignorant) and here’s how stubborn I was, I kept my American phone. It was my landline and I wasn’t giving it up! I still needed to hear american accents and vent to my sister with ease when I had a confusing day because I bought the wrong thing at the supermercato or when I would attempt to pay a utility bill at the tabacchi and no one understood my hard LA Accent trying to speak in Italian! Don’t get me wrong though, day to day I was really enjoying our new life. I was getting the hang of living abroad and working out the minor glitches. There was a new adventure to look forward to everyday. I had some places I wanted to take Sophia to, so we started to”wander” around Italia. Naples, Pompei, Verona, Genoa, Puglia, I was so curious to see more of Italy and everywhere we went we experienced so much fun, hospitality, and kindness from the locals it was really easy to fall in love with our new country we were calling home! I wasn’t just falling in love with Italy though, two months later my fate would change and I would meet the love of my life….

It was in Vicenza, at a strip-nightclub called Kiss Kiss that a tall, beautiful, english speaking, Italian man named Alberto would sweep me off my feet and change the course of my life. I wasn’t open at the time to dating. Like I literally just arrived and was solely focused on my daughter, work and school. In that order. My (now) future husband is an attorney practicing criminal Law and on the advice of his client, joins him for a night out at a strip club, that I happen to be the feature at. He stayed to watch my show and at his clients urging decided to approach me and introduce himself. He had me at “ciao”.. kind of! He was beautiful and kind and when he smiled at me I though ok what’s the harm in having a drink and conversation… That conversation (also probably my boobs) prompted him to follow me to my next two dance appearances where we got to know each other a little bit better. He respected ME, my boundaries , my life as a mother. Everything WE did included Sophia. He never pressured me into giving him anything but showed me, and OMG the intense, insane passion.. Fuck me… gonna stop there haha XXX… He showed us so much of Italy and it was so incredible. I kept a diary daily from our first months here in 2015 until 2020 January, and I only recently opened it up to relive and re-read my emotions during that time period. One reason I love writing so much is it gives me such perspective on how far I’ve grown and come. It’s also very cathartic for me. This was truly the first time in my life where I experienced just living. I was able to connect with someone, be intimate with them and provide such a life for Sophia and I because I had zero “worries”. I was truly open and ready, loving and giving from my whole heart. I had retired from performing in the adult industry in 2008 and when Sophia was born in 2012 I took those years to invest, save and really focus on other things in life that I still yearned to do.

Which brings me to where I am now and how we’ve settled, quite nicely I may add into our La Dolce Vita. I couldn’t be happier. Like I said I’ve always taken risks and ninety nine percent of the time it has worked out for me. That one percent I wold call a lesson. I don’t believe we lose when things don’t work out or go our way, I think we must simply learn that’s all. I’ve jumped from alligator to crocodile and of course I know what it’s like to be in a situation where we just feel “comfortable”. Instead of jumping off or diving in we can or just talk ourselves out of what “could be” or “would be”. We stall, make excuses, over plan and convince ourselves that we need to do allll these things in order to try a new experience, move away, break away from something old, something that isn’t feeding our soul, or putting our happiness first. I will say that I am grateful for the support I had. Tony was very kind and it was brave of him too, to allow me to take our daughter to a new place and see how life would be for her benefit. It takes a lot of trust to let go of your own desires and allow someone else to steer the course of where your daughter’s life could be. I’ve learned about selflessness, on this journey. How I am strong, adaptable,how you really can”start over” (if that’s what you want to call it) and how in our life yes time does fly BUT WE are the pilots! It was an incredible leap of faith I took. reading back to some of the first few journal entries I made when I first arrived I can’t believe what a different place I am in today. This leap has brought me so much joy! I am proud of the incredible life I’ve been able to provide, with my husband. This may not be the place for me to gush about him but my soul is so incredibly happy because of love. Thank you all for being here for me today and everyday as well. It’s because of YOU my loyal loving fans that I am still inspired to create, and you have been here for me since I started in 1999 through each and every phase of my life :}}} Thank you from my heart :}} XO Tera

Tera Reigns Supreme

SS07 Supreme has no doubt been one of the best moments in my career . Back in 2007 when they asked me to collaborate with renowned photographer Kenneth Capello in NYC we created some sensual imagery that became classic collectors items . I was featured on two T-shirts. The “Je t’aime one below and a photo tee was exclusively released in Japan to promote The Supreme Book Vol. 3 There was also a set of three lighters . http://highsnobiety.com/p/supreme-celebrity-tees/ has a fantastic piece on every Supreme Tee and the story behind it … FW24 Fast forward 17 years later and I’m gracing a new Supreme Tee and Skateboard Deck for the Fall / Winter collection . I’m so excited to be a part of it again . I scoured the internet a few years ago looking for my SS07 Tee but never found one ! I’d love to see pics so if you have a Tee from the new collection or 2007 show me . Go get one here if you haven’t yet … XO Tera ttps://eu.supreme.com/products/tdb1kla6rd3y3bdo

Eckhaus Latta Sunglasses Campaign

It’s Hot in here … Summertime is finally here in Northern Italy and I get to break out my three favorite summer essentials . Sunscreen , shorts and sunglasses. I’m featured with Tony Ward in the new Eckhaus Latta Sunglasses campaign shot by Rob Kulisek http://robkulisek.com and it was amazing working with such wonderful people. Check out mine and Tony’s interview here https://www.ssense.com/en-us/editorial/fashion/tony-ward-tera-patrick-interview-eckhaus-latt What could be hotter than two sex icons coming together to shoot sexual expressions in sunglasses though ? I loved working with such a diverse group of cool fun people. When I got the call from Esra for this shoot I was on my way home to Italy (by way of Chicago EXXXOTICA) and made the trip back to LA just to shoot. Fashion modeling will always be my first love and I’m so happy to have been a part of this . I hope you enjoy the article and shoot ! XO Tera

Crabby in Krabi – The Rocky Part of our Thailand trip

Krabi by The Sea .. Leaving Chiang Mai in the beautiful mountains it was time to spend the last two weeks of our Thailand trip by the sea. For months Alberto and I watched our favorite YouTuber Paddy Doyle document his entire journey through every providence in Thailand and we couldn’t wait to see the breathtaking seaside for ourselves. If you’ve been reading about my trips you know what I mean when I say there’s a “dip in the trip “.. This is usually the part where I’m not feeling it or enjoying myself . August is the monsoon season in Thailand so expect a lot of rain . We arrived to Krabi airport late around nine-thirty P.M , and were bombarded with driver’s who insisted on taking us to our hotel as there were no other options .. It was a bit unnerving , being crammed into a van with ten other people , completely dark , pouring rain with a two hour ride to the other side of the island since our hotel was the furthest away but here we go! Low Tides and Limestone cliffs We finally arrived to our Hotel http://krabihomeresort.com and it was going to be sweet relief to climb into bed after a day of traveling. A staff member (BLESS HIM) waited for us to arrive (at midnight no less) had an umbrella , change (for our shuttle driver ) and big smile on his face as he carried our luggage up the hill to our bungalow. Morning brought us overcast skies but warm smiles from the wonderful staff at our resort and a good breakfast . We’d have to wait until tomorrow to get a longtail boat since the forecast was rain and rough seas. We decided to explore our beach area Tubkaak , and spend the day relaxing and eating some good home cooked Thai food.. The tide was low so I was able to Vlog and walk quite a bit. The sunset was stunning.. Hong Island (Koh Hong) Our hostess at our resort booked a longtail boat so we set of to Hong Island . It takes about 20 minutes and is an easy quick day trip . Located in the Thanbok Kharanee National Park the beach is divided into two sections. The landing spot for the longtail boats is where you pay 400 thai baht to enter the national park . We climbed the 420 steps to the Hong Island Viewpoint which was quite a workout but you’re rewarded with the most breathtaking view of this magical island . The white sand beach is super soft ,clear, and warm. We took some beautiful photos then got back on the longtail boat so we could swim in the Hong lagoon .You have to pass through a narrow rock opening to enter the lagoon but it’s another world . The towering limestone cliffs , and turquoise water are breathtaking … Have your hotel pack a lunch or grab food and snacks if you plan to spend the day on the island or boat. I don’t recall if there’s a shop to get food or snacks once you get to the island.. A watertight beach bag is a must to protect your clothes, phone, and anything you bring with you onto the beach.I recommend checking with your local host also for the weather since it can change rapidly. We were having the sweetest sea time here , so why did I have to suggest we see something else… Rocky times in Railay So here’s where our trip gets rocky.. Railay Beach was a quick trip from Ao Nang the main hub and starting point of Krabi . After 3 days I thought let’s go see another part of the Island! It’s not that I get bored (well sometimes) . It’s that I want to see as much as I can when I’m in a new destination. So we drove the two hours to the Ao Nang pier , then a 10 minute longtail boat ride and finally we were towed into the Railay Beach resort and spa by a tractor . My first impression of Railay beach west wasn’t a good one. The scenery and landscape is pretty but the beach itself was dirty. Or should I say .. messy ? Walking the beach path towards our resort I couldn’t help but feel like we stepped into some some kind of trap. Tourist trap maybe ? Weed shops, fast food and a few tiny cafes lined the concrete path along the trash filled beach…. Eager to escape the loud techno music and the sound of crocs shuffling against sandy concrete we checked into our room and planned out our next three days… What the heck were we going to do for three days here ? Our resort was big and although outdated in terms of aesthetics three big crystal clear pools called out to me so I could cool off in the scorching humid heat and watch the moneys squabble over snacks they’d steal off of tourists breakfasts plates LOL We found one cafe that served good Pad Thai and wasn’t blaring music 24-7 so that’s where we enjoyed our meals . On our way back from the cafe that first night my husband decides to stop by and inquire about rock climbing tours and signs us both up ! Why not! Those limestone cliffs look easy to climb AND what else is there to do around here! No I’ve never rock climbed in my life but in my Kevin Hart voice “you’re gonna learn today! You’re gonna learn what rock climbing is today ! And here’s how it went .. Phra Nang Beach Shadowrock climbing met us bright and early at Phra Nang Beach along with hundreds of other tourists also geared up and ready to scale the gorgeous cliffs. I went first and let me tell you what you might already know ; ROCK CLIMBING IS HARD . Mad respect because

X3 Expo in Los Angeles

My first X3 Expo ! Hey guys it’s pouring rain at home here in Italy so I’m catching you all up on my travels ! Christmas 2023 and the New year brought me back to Los Angeles . I stayed an extra three weeks to attend my very first X3 Expo presented by XBIZ . XBIZ is one of the two main B2B and award shows in the Adult industry . I had the privilege of hosting the XBIZ Awards with comedienne Orlando Jones in 2013. X3 Expo Details The X3 Expo http://X3.show takes place in Hollywood , California mid January at the Hollywood Palladium and features Pornstars (past and present ), webcam models , and creators /influencers from the adult industry. The set up was definitely more “chaotic” compared to the booths and tables that are provided at the AVN show . The Palladium is a nightclub so our setups were bar tables and barstools and we were packed pretty tight together but as pornstars we’re kinda used to that LOL Honestly it was pretty funny for me because I knew literally no one! I have no idea who I signed next to those two days but across from me were my friends Fleshlight http://www.fleshlight.eu/products/tera-patrick . X3 Expo Friends !! Well it turns out I did find my friends after all !! One of my favorite ladies in the industry Lacie Lennon http://linktr.ee/misslacylennon always comes to see me for a hug and I love talking to her. She’s super smart. I love how she’s handled herself and her career . Tommy Gunn was one of my favorite performers to work with . Such a kind and humble guy. My good friend Gege who’s always traveled with me and did my very first expo in Los Angeles wanted to say hello to Ember Snow who’s always stunning and sweet . I don’t do awards shows anymore but after some time it was great to stay in LA and meet up again with my fans . I don’t think I had made an LA appearance in almost 10 years! Unless you catch me at a CVS or Thai town … It was fun and thank you to my wonderful LA friends and fans who made it out !! XO Tera

ItsMeSpkn2U – Ep. 132 With Tera Patrick

Speaking with Jeffery Wilson Hi everyone! It’s been a minute since I’ve made a podcast appearance and I’m back with THREE new ones ! First up I reconnect with my friend Jeffery Wilson on ItsMeSpkn2U. We do a deep dive into my accident , our favorite theories surrounding covid and lockdown then finish with our favorite places to travel . We also touch on the importance of keeping a good network of family and friends close especially in our wacky but fun world that is entertainment. Jeffery is one of my favorite people to talk to and he’s such a wonderful storyteller on his show. Please consider joining and supporting him below !! Thank you and enjoy our episode XO Tera The Most Lovely Tera Patrick returns to catch us up on what she’s been up to. And it’s been A LOT! Enjoy! SUPPORT THE SHOW! www.chemicalfreebody.com PROMO CODE- ItsMe for discounts! www.preparewithitsme.com That Podcast Network · ItsMeSpkn2U Ep. 132 Tera Patrick